Nothing is stopping you from rolling initiative. Next time you're out and about and see a potential combat situation, just roll to see if you can strike first. Make reality D&D.

I’m in this meme and it maketh me morose

I'm in the same boat. I also got rulebooks for Pathfinder 2E + Mutants and Masterminds in case I wanted to mix it up. Now they all have a neat little spot on the shelf to collect dust.

I would play more rpgs on tha table but i havent had a real group in a while nor do i know anyone willing to play, ive looked but no luck.

I was in the same boat. Have you tried solo roleplaying? It's not for everyone but I'm enjoying it a lot lately. Especially with the mythic gm emulator.

I have the same quest and I've talked to every villager I can find and while some of them respond positively to the "want to play D&D?" prompt, none of us have been able to solve the scheduling minigame

Eh, this can be hit or miss in my experience. Last time I attacked the blacksmith he turned into a dragon and ate me whole. Definitely don't recommend that experience.

I know many furries that would pay extra for that.

There might be meetups near you doing games. There's one here in NYC that's very friendly I've been to.

I still buy maps and assets for my 0 campaigns. One day...

My group fell apart because of scheduling issues. I miss it.

Oh, so you moved to a GOOD system.

Hello Compression Artifacts, my old friend.

No im just lonely and dont like online games that much compared to in person.

There's some online services that connect people. It's really hit or miss, but could lead to a decent campaign for you.

I got roasted so hard by my last group when I tried to first time dm tyranny of dragons (to be fair, the first part of it is combat heavy and I didn't handle it as well as I could have) and it triggered my anxiety about it so hard that I dropped from the group and havent played in 5 years

I meant like, PBTA or Daggerheart

That actually sucks man, I'm sorry, that's not how a first time DM for any new system should be treated.

Who are you and why are you me?